I haven’t been diagnosed, but I feel that I may deal with social anxiety. I have no desire to interact with people, it’s uncomfortable and I have to put on a face for them. It’s exhausting. No one close to me really understands… I’d rather stay home and snuggle with a book, or Netflix or video games than interact with other people… I don’t feel like I belong, and I’ve been hurt by so many people that I just can’t risk it anymore. I keep a couple people close to me. My husband, my roommate, my family. That’s it. Letting people in is too dangerous. It terrifies me. I’ve been judged, mistreated, left behind. Dropped like a hot potato… That’s why I don’t anymore. I doubt anyone will read this… But if you do, thanks, and sorry, just needed to get this off my chest.
i had a crush on this guy and i decided to pull a Pavlov on him by offering him whenever i saw him this brand of candy he seemed to really like and after a while whenever he saw me he got excited for a second then you could see his expression shift to wondering the why the hell was he so happy to see me and i swear it was the evilest thing but also the most hilarious i made a guy like me by conditioning him into associating me to a candy he liked